I want to write so much right now but I can’t.

Remember, in my first post, where I admitted that it took me a long time to feel things? Yea. Well.

That’s still true.

I know what I should be feeling. Logic tells me that I should be feeling sad, enraged, upset, disenfranchised, confused, hurt, and myriad other things. But do you know what I actually feel?

Numb.

And drunk.

But mostly the first one.

You see, I respond in extremes. So when super bad things happen- or when super good things happen, I go numb.

And, right now, I am the queen of numb.

The QUEEN, I tell you.

Now. More whisky.

G’night.